Make an abrupt, unsteady, uncontrolled movement.

Lurching.

That is pretty much how I feel.

Seven weeks ago I moved out of my home – we had made a decision to move North – to be nearer to my Mum – our house sold and we have the cash – great – we have spent 3 weeks on holiday – fab – for the first 3 weeks of being ‘homeless’ I was living with my mum but I was at work all day – now – well now is less ok.

So I am at home with my Mum and my older brother – and I am lurching from one emotion to another – I want to be here but I cannot stand being controlled all of the time.

I need to settle – I need to be in my own home – I need to be in control.

I want to be close to mum BUT I need to have my life where I can make a decision and do what I want – leave things untidy if I want – wash what I want and when I want – go out or stay in or go to the shops or – well I just want to be in control nothing more and nothing less – not this constant need to move out of the way.

 

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Time for this owl to fly the nest…

If my baby is finding this tough – imagine how hard it is for me xxxx

A Year In My Life

Sooooooo, Mum and Dad have officially sold our house, brought a new house, and decided to move at the beginning of July. BIG CHANGES!!!!

I knew Mum and Dad were moving, and that I’d be heading off to Leeds soon but I wasn’t expecting it to be quite so soon. It’s quite a shock actually!! It’s like everything has hit me at once. We’re all moving, I’m starting Teacher Training in just a few months, I’ll be living on my own, and I’ll officially be leaving the nest! I’m not sure I’m ready for this, I’ve been assured that I am, but I’m a little skeptical. I mean how can I be stepping out into the real world as a proper adult?! I swear it’s only been like two minutes since I graduated university, a few weeks since I started sixth form, a month or two since GCSEs were looming…

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13 Reasons Why…

Things that make me happy

1. My Family
2. A good book
3. Christmas morning
4. A new gin
5. A good film (Harrison Ford is a bonus)
6. A snuggle with my baby girl (not so much of a baby)
7. Autumn
8. Tulips
9. When a student ‘gets it’
10. Hugs
11. A good joke (one liners are the best)
12. A sing-along-song on the radio (daydream believer maybe)
13. My family (they are my joy)

A Year In My Life

Hola!!

So, today I finished watching the Netflix original series “13 Reasons Why”. This show has been all over social media recently so I thought I’d give it a go!

*spoiler alert*

The show is about a young girl, Hannah Baker, who has committed suicide and left behind tapes with the ’13 reasons why’ she killed herself. The show is incredibly moving and really highlights a subject which is still very taboo! During the show we see how Hannah deals with the situations which lead to her suicide, and we see how those she left behind are dealing with her death. Throughout the show we see a range of horrific situations; bullying, rape, alcohol/drug abuse, physical abuse, road traffic accidents, and of course suicide. We confront all of these situations in a real but sensitive way, which really highlights some of the terrible things going on in the world. Things we…

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